Frustrating

Ok, apparently I have this huge problem with frustrating myself. I suppose that I think about things too much, but I guess that in the long run, that's a good thing. I don't know, but lately (as always) I've been thinking about my future career. Some of you will know that I have gone through several majors that I have "decided on" but have continually changed my mind, obviously. Lately I decided that I was going to stick to my illustration major, but I was thinking again yesterday: With the economy going down the drain, would that be a wise choice? Will people have need of an illustrator/designer? Will the economy get better? Is it even as bad as I lead myself to think? And then I started thinking of my other options (again). If I were to change my major to languages and learn maybe two in school and more on my own, or through extended schooling, that would most likely score me a more stable career, maybe in the government or entertainment or translating. Also, being bi-lingual is a perk on almost any application. Before, when I was considering language first, I had been really asking for help and was really torn, but one morning in the midst of all this questioning I read a scripture that could not have been more of an answer: D&C 90:15 - "And set in order the churches, and study and learn, and become acquainted with all good books, and with languages, tongues, and people."

Truth be told, I wasn't expecting an answer like that; I hadn't even prayed out loud requesting an answer yet, but I had it in my heart, and proceeded to pray about it after, to which I felt really good about it. But I feel really good about doing other things too. I have felt that I should go into art, language, photography, classics...but I can't do them all! I don't have the money, and I feel like I need a degree as soon as possible so I can start making enough money to support myself. I have 20-something credits in art already, and if I change majors I will have to start over. I also feel like art is something that is generally judged by talent and not degree, and I may have some talent now, but I want to be as good ad I can be, because art is still a competetive field. I can also somewhat easily learn languages on my own, but that is something that will need documentation to prove, I think. So I'm kind of stuck in a rut, and if anyone has any advice, I'd be more than happy to receive it. I'm running out of time, haha, I want to start school again in the spring. I did decide one thing for sure, though - I am going to get this DONE.

So now to talk of other things. That is, assuming I can come up with anything interesting.

I have been "hired" as my coworker's secretary. Every day he comes in and asks if he has any messages. Lately I have been having a hard time coming up with sassy replies; it's kind of sad. I used to say things like, "Oh, your mom called and wants to tell you that you should start washing your underwear more often." or "Santa Claus called and wants to know if you still want those Transformer bedsheets." He usually has an answer: "I don't wear underwear, I'm Batman." or "Heck yes I still want those Transformer sheets. How nice." I should really up my productivity. Oh, I'm getting paid in burritos, by the way. Invisible burritos, apparently. Sadness.

Oh joy, I have so many awesome patterns now (Joann's has been having sales!) so now I just need some extra time to....oh who am I kidding, I do have extra time. Not much, but it's still there. I probably won't have any come springtime though. Rats. Anyway, I have been really into sewing lately. :D I want to get on it, there's a lot I need to learn if I want to start designing and making my own clothes. (I breifly considered fashion design as a major to change to as well. Bwaha) Anyone know where I can get an asjustable dress form for a reasonable price?

This week for Thanksgiving I get to make the rolls. Joy and yum! And I have the Friday after off! Yessss! I get to visit family longer! It's about time! I have been coming in to work on all the paid holidays we've needed someone, so it's about time the other person does one. Hmmm...maybe I will do some Black Friday shopping this year. Think that's wise? My aunt sprained her ankle at RC Willey on Black Friday once...

Now, I need something visual on here, since this post is kind of boring, (and I'm kind of bored as well) so I google-imaged the letters of my first name and picked the ones I liked the best. Just because.

Voila!