Frustrating

Ok, apparently I have this huge problem with frustrating myself. I suppose that I think about things too much, but I guess that in the long run, that's a good thing. I don't know, but lately (as always) I've been thinking about my future career. Some of you will know that I have gone through several majors that I have "decided on" but have continually changed my mind, obviously. Lately I decided that I was going to stick to my illustration major, but I was thinking again yesterday: With the economy going down the drain, would that be a wise choice? Will people have need of an illustrator/designer? Will the economy get better? Is it even as bad as I lead myself to think? And then I started thinking of my other options (again). If I were to change my major to languages and learn maybe two in school and more on my own, or through extended schooling, that would most likely score me a more stable career, maybe in the government or entertainment or translating. Also, being bi-lingual is a perk on almost any application. Before, when I was considering language first, I had been really asking for help and was really torn, but one morning in the midst of all this questioning I read a scripture that could not have been more of an answer: D&C 90:15 - "And set in order the churches, and study and learn, and become acquainted with all good books, and with languages, tongues, and people."

Truth be told, I wasn't expecting an answer like that; I hadn't even prayed out loud requesting an answer yet, but I had it in my heart, and proceeded to pray about it after, to which I felt really good about it. But I feel really good about doing other things too. I have felt that I should go into art, language, photography, classics...but I can't do them all! I don't have the money, and I feel like I need a degree as soon as possible so I can start making enough money to support myself. I have 20-something credits in art already, and if I change majors I will have to start over. I also feel like art is something that is generally judged by talent and not degree, and I may have some talent now, but I want to be as good ad I can be, because art is still a competetive field. I can also somewhat easily learn languages on my own, but that is something that will need documentation to prove, I think. So I'm kind of stuck in a rut, and if anyone has any advice, I'd be more than happy to receive it. I'm running out of time, haha, I want to start school again in the spring. I did decide one thing for sure, though - I am going to get this DONE.

So now to talk of other things. That is, assuming I can come up with anything interesting.

I have been "hired" as my coworker's secretary. Every day he comes in and asks if he has any messages. Lately I have been having a hard time coming up with sassy replies; it's kind of sad. I used to say things like, "Oh, your mom called and wants to tell you that you should start washing your underwear more often." or "Santa Claus called and wants to know if you still want those Transformer bedsheets." He usually has an answer: "I don't wear underwear, I'm Batman." or "Heck yes I still want those Transformer sheets. How nice." I should really up my productivity. Oh, I'm getting paid in burritos, by the way. Invisible burritos, apparently. Sadness.

Oh joy, I have so many awesome patterns now (Joann's has been having sales!) so now I just need some extra time to....oh who am I kidding, I do have extra time. Not much, but it's still there. I probably won't have any come springtime though. Rats. Anyway, I have been really into sewing lately. :D I want to get on it, there's a lot I need to learn if I want to start designing and making my own clothes. (I breifly considered fashion design as a major to change to as well. Bwaha) Anyone know where I can get an asjustable dress form for a reasonable price?

This week for Thanksgiving I get to make the rolls. Joy and yum! And I have the Friday after off! Yessss! I get to visit family longer! It's about time! I have been coming in to work on all the paid holidays we've needed someone, so it's about time the other person does one. Hmmm...maybe I will do some Black Friday shopping this year. Think that's wise? My aunt sprained her ankle at RC Willey on Black Friday once...

Now, I need something visual on here, since this post is kind of boring, (and I'm kind of bored as well) so I google-imaged the letters of my first name and picked the ones I liked the best. Just because.

Voila!

It's All About Werewolves Anyway

Here we go. The day of dread. Utter defensive vampiric dread. I'm going to get it all out of my system now so that when every woman in my workplace gangs up on me for being practically the only female here who isn't enraptured by those books, I can keep all my clever insults inside and not get mauled by the wannabe undead cheerleading squad. No, I did NOT go see the Twilight movie at midnight, nor will I consider paying good money to go see it until it hits the dollar theater. Then I'll think about it. I really have nothing against the Twilight series, but what I do think is that it was grossly over-exaggerated. It's kind of sad to me when a book as uninteresting to me as Twilight (Sorry Twilight lovers! Really, I am.) gets a ridiculously huge amount of recognition, when amazing books of a much higher caliber go unnoticed and ignored. That's really my only thing. I can totally understand how people can love a book with little plot or action that's made up with an overindulgence of romance. Romances are great, just not for me. Please don't hate me. :D

Aaaaaaaand I just remembered that I was supposed to bring green onions for the potluck today, so I will be ending this post short.

TSO

Ok. The Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert last night was absolutely AMAZING and I think I love them.

That's all.

Of Books and Music

Yesterday I read Of Mice and Men. Great book, but definitely not what I expected. But once I think about it, I don't really know what most classics are about. Catcher in the Rye was totally different than what I imagined, because I didn't know a thing about it. I'm sure most of the books on my list will be the same. I'm still excited to read them though. There's something addicting about those kind of books - the honesty, the irony, the hopes, dreams and failures. An Occurrence at Owl Creek Bridge is like that. I like a happy ending, but I remember an honest one. Anyway, I'm thinking For Whom The Bell Tolls next. :D

And I just found the neatest indie band I've heard in a long time. Katzenjammer. Check them out, I dare you. http://obscuresound.com/ They're the last band on the page.

I kind of like Rockettothesky and Peter Moore as well. 3rd page. That is a very good blog. :D

Newness of Job

I am so sick of being bored all the time at work - It's a good place, but I have needed something new for a long time, so if any of you know of a job I would be interested in, please let me know.

Why I'm Doomed: Part I

I just realized something about myself: Every time I walk out of the bathroom at work and make my way down the hall to my desk, I subconsciously tug on my right earlobe. I will never know why, unless I go to a psychologist and have it analyzed, but that will never, ever happen.
Also, whenever I simply enter a certain restroom on the north side of the building, I am immediately reminded of My Little Ponies. This, however, I have an explanation for: the smell. The air freshener had that vanilla-plastic smell that seemed to be a staple of all toys made in the 80s. While that air freshener has long been replaced, I still get that memory of my childhood forced into my head by that bathroom. How funny is that?

I have to express my extreme pleasure in the fact that someone from one of our branches was here today and actually came to meet me! She had a snack for us note custodians too! I was so happy, because my small (two person) department is often overlooked and forgotten, which can be a good or a sad thing, depending on the vistor, of course. But in general, I like to put faces to the names I am constantly emailing as well as the next person, so today was mark-on-my-calendar-worthy. Except that I did not mark it on my calendar.

And how's this for dumb - I think I would like to keep my illustration major. I went just about full-circle there. But if making my life harder is wrong, then I don't want to be right. Wait...

P.S. I named this post "Part I" because I'm quite sure that there will be other instances made aware in this journal that will only further explain why I'm doomed. Call it a precaution, if you will.

Creativity Rears It's Awesome Head

Ok, I'm such a nerd, but I want to post this because I love it so much. You might not know this, but I absolutely love the iconic symbols of reindeer. Deer in general are fabby, but when Christmas comes around, I start getting excited because I get to pull out all my reindeer stuff to decorate with. Every year I buy a decorative reindeer as well as a stuffed/cutesy reindeer. So I was at Joann's recently and saw the coolest little deer charm (I have been on this gigantic creative streak lately, and I have been wanting to make all sorts of stuff, like food, jewelry, and clothes) so I needed to make something with it. It's nothing much, but here's my little deer necklace:

I have worn it three days in a row - that shows you what sort of a dork I am. But I am upset because people keep thinking it's a chihuahua. :( Anyway, one day I will be good enough so that I can actually play a bigger part in the development of such pieces, instead of just buying the pieces and putting them together. I've been reading up on jewelry-making during today's slow hours. :D

Here are a couple other things I've been keeping myself busy with:

First: My coat. You have no idea how exciting this is for me. I have had the pieces for this coat cut out for I think three years, and I am only putting it together now. Victory! I have a hard time making sense of the pattern instructions, so I have been having my mom basically tell me what to do while I go do it. I need to have her tell me what everything means, pattern-wise. All I have left to do is the hemming, buttons and pockets, I believe.

Second: Those earrings. Yeah, they look a bit odd, but they are for a friend, and they are more for collections sake than for wearing, since they have a mutual meaning for us both, but this friend loves flashy stuff, so she will wear them anyway. I just wanted to post them because I was pleased with how they turned out.

I'm also doing some secret fun Christmas gift stuff, so stay tuned!!

Pro-Integrity!

I was reading up on some celebrity presidential opinions today, and I was going to say I was surprised at what I read, but I'm really not. They're candidate choices mean nothing to me - I know we all have our freedom to choose and that's great, but what always gets me is the lack of respect that celebrities (and not only them - I've been reading about a surprising amount of average-joe disrespectful voters) have in regards to everyone going against their prime choices. To me, when someone flaunts an unnecessary dislike toward a presidential candidate in the form of insults, it's an easy way to tell that said person probably doesn't have any knowledge about all parties, (likely not even a substantial knowledge of the one they are supporting!) and a general absence of integrity. This is what scares me more than any potentially unfit presidential hopeful - a nation of free voters without the ability to vote intelligently.
I will say though, that I was happy to see a few celebrities who gave their opinions tactfully by praising the opposition instead of degrading them. And I don't mean to lift myself above the majority either, because I am certainly working on being more knowledgeable about all of my options, but for heaven's sake, I don't say that I'm going to leave the country if so-and-so wins. That's just stupid. But hey, if you want to leave the country, don't let Lady Liberty hold you back. It will just up the intelligence ratio here a bit anyway.